React
I can never know you.
I don't know what makes you tick, what makes you wince, what makes you dart your eyes to the side.
What makes you raise your eyebrows, what makes you smirk, what makes you laugh till your sides hurt.
What if I knew, would it actually matter? Would you pay attention, would you call that thoughtful.
If I had a mental checklist to refer to, like a doctor checking a patients symptoms. Analyzing.
Is that sentimental, or pathetic. Wise, foolish, or both? Would you do the same?
If I know you back to front, dissect every word, thought, action, reaction, movement. Would it be worth it?
What would I gain. Knowledge? Is it? Would it be useful, or a burden?
I don't want to know you. I just want to understand. I don't want to bear your actions. Emotional weight. I'll observe, and understand. And most importantly, accept. I won't try to fix you. I'm not the doctor. My standards are mine, not yours. I'll accept you.
I can never know you. That would take a lifetime. Change is constant, but I'm finite. I won't ask why you do what you do, why you act the way you do, why you think the way you do, that's your responsibility.
No matter how long you know a person, you can never know them for sure. They're endlessly molding, and you can't keep up. That's only talking about the tip of the iceberg you can actually see.
I've exhausted myself trying to study human behavior, I'm going to retire and start my own advice column.

7 Comments:
beautifully written. some phrases jumped out of the page min kether gowat.hom. I loved:
"Change is constant, but I'm finite."
"My standards are mine, not yours. I'll accept you." <-- while i love that comment, I must ask.. how plausable do u think that is? there r standards we set for ourselves, but i also believe there r standards of acceptance we set for others, whereby if they violate them, we would draw the line.
what do u think?
MSB- Of course there are standards for acceptance, I wouldn't be in the company of people if I didn't think they were 'okay', however there are some people that you just have to be with, family, relatives, friends of friends, and I'm just facing the fact that I can't tire myself wondering why they do the things they do. They have their own ideals I guess, but I'm not talking about extreme situations, I would really draw the line if that should ever occur.
tadrin 3ad, over the last year i've learned something that's been very useful. like what u just said, i stopped trying to 'make sense' of everything. some situations, some behaviors, will never make any sense except in the minds of the people who've committed them.
fa badal ma a3awer rasee o waste time on something that's useless, i just accept it & move on. wayed arya7!
Wasted time and energy on something that doesn't really benefit anyone. Be and let others be, thats my motto now :P I seriously couldn't care less about what others do about their lives, I'm going to be too busy living mine.
hmmmmmmmmmmm....
dikht........
yabeelna ga3da ;P
Charisma- Hmmmmmmmmmm :P
Interesting Post
Post a Comment
<< Home